My Love

2/7/05    3:22 a.m.    Monday

“Oh, My Children!  You are so precious to Me!  I love you so very deeply.  My Heart goes out to you!  I invite you to open your heart to Me.  Allow Me to love you.  Let yourself go in My Hands.  I am the One who created you.  I am the One who designed your very soul.  I gave you your heart for one purpose – to love Me.  The love that we share can’t help but to spill over and touch the hearts of everyone around you.  My Love is contagious!!”

“My Love is a very special kind of love.  It is selfless.  It is holy.  It has power to change lives.  It has power to heal.  It has power to strengthen.  It has power to nourish through My Holy Word.  It has power to move mountains through faith.  It has power to free a person from sin.  It has power to shed light on the darkness in your heart, to expose it and expel it.  My Love is the basis for every virtue.”

“My Love comes from Me, and I offer it to you, that you may have My Awesome, Powerful Love dwelling inside your heart.  I love you, My Children.  I desire you to have My Love rooted firmly in your heart.  I desire you to have the desires of My Heart, to follow through with My Holy Will, to act upon My Holy Word.  I desire you to dwell in Me that I may dwell in you.  I desire for you to be filled with My Holy Spirit, to be filled with My Holy Love, to walk in My Holy Ways.”

“You are so precious to Me.  I love you, I love you, I love you!  Allow Me to give you My Love.  Allow Me to so fill you with Myself that you can’t help but to love as I love, to act as I act, to be as I Am, to be full of Me.  I desire to be One with you.  I love you!  I desire to unite Myself with you so that My Love will radiate throughout the whole world!  I love you, My Children.  I bless you, My Children!  I bless you with My Love!  Halleluia, Halleluia, Amen!!”

I Am the Light

2/13/18      3:39 a.m.

“Oh, My Children!  I am the Light.  I am the Light that shines in your darkness.  I see the way for you.  I know the way for you.  I lead you by the hand.”

“I am never too far away from you.  I hold your soul in existence.  I know your every move, your every thought.”

“I am enamored with you.  I am in love with your heart and soul.”

“I created you out of love.  I called you into being.  I have a special purpose for you, one that only I know.”

“I will tell you more and more as you draw near to Me.”

“I hold your heart in My Hands.  You, whom I love.”

“Have no worries.  Trust in Me.  Have no fears.  Believe in My Word.  Believe in My Words of Love for you.”

“Cling to Me in your darkest hour.  I will cling to you.  I will be with you every moment.  I will warm your heart, and light your path with My Love.”

“I love you, My Children, I love you.  I bless you, My Child, I bless you.  Halleluia, Halleluia, Amen!!”

Pro-Life Healing Rosary Meditation for Joyful Mysteries

            Sometimes when I pray the rosary, my Lord Jesus shows me images in my mind.  I call it, “seeing with the eyes of my heart.”  Jesus gives me understanding of these images, sometimes while I am seeing them, and sometimes when I am writing down what I remember about them.  These are private revelations, and have not been approved by the Catholic Church.  The only reason I am sharing them is to stir up and strengthen your faith in the love that God has for you.

The following meditations are graphic.  In His tender love, mercy, and humility, Jesus gets to the heart of the matter, as only The Master Healer can.  Jesus encounters us, and is truly present, where we need Him the most, deep in our hearts and souls.  Jesus is adept not only at physical surgery, but also spiritual surgery, healing us of things we didn’t even know we needed healing of.  These meditations reveal the compassionate love that God has for all the aborted babies, and their mothers and fathers.

            As for me, I am not worthy to receive these visions.  I am completely at God’s mercy, a poor sinner.  Only by the grace of God, and His great love for little me, could I even begin to have the courage to open my heart, and accept His forgiveness, healing, and love.   These visions are a gift from God.  My constant prayer is to be a good steward of His gifts.  I thank God from the bottom of my heart for His gifts, and I give Him all the glory, honor, and praise!  The greatest gift is Jesus, Himself!  I pray that these rosary meditations will bring hope and healing to mothers and fathers who have lost their children through abortion.  Jesus loves each and every precious soul!  Jesus loves all the mothers, all the fathers, and all the babies!  Praise God!

1^st Joyful Mystery – The Annunciation

            While praying this decade of the rosary, I saw with the eyes of my heart, Jesus, as an unborn baby – incarnate - inside His Mother Mary’s womb.  Loving each and every soul, Jesus identified and suffered with all the unborn babies in the world, as they were being aborted.  Jesus, having compassion upon all the mothers, shone His Light upon all their wombs, healing them from the inside out.

^2nd Joyful Mystery – The Visitation

While praying this decade of the rosary, I saw with the eyes of my heart, Jesus, inside the womb of His Mother, Mary, and I saw John the Baptist inside Saint Elizabeth’s womb.  Little John leapt for joy inside his mother’s womb as he recognized the holy and awesome presence of Little Jesus, his Creator, God, Savior, and King!

^3rd Joyful Mystery – The Nativity

While praying this decade of the rosary, I saw with the eyes of my heart, the newborn baby Jesus in the loving arms of Mary and Joseph.  Then I saw each aborted baby made whole and new again.  One by one, Mary and Joseph held each baby in their arms, and bathed each precious child in their love!

^4th Joyful Mystery – The Presentation

             While praying this decade of the rosary, I saw with the eyes of my heart, Mary and Joseph bringing baby Jesus to the temple to present Him to the Lord.  Then I saw Mary and Joseph lovingly bringing and presenting each aborted baby, now healed, to the Lord!

^5th Joyful Mystery – The Finding of Jesus in the Temple

             While praying this decade of the rosary, I saw with the eyes of my heart, Mary and Joseph finding the Child Jesus in the temple.  Then I saw all the mothers and fathers of their aborted babies, finding their children, too, in the temple!  Praise God!

Softly, just Be love

“A God who became so small could only be mercy and love.”  - St. Therese

                A thought came to my mind as I was driving home from a prayer meeting Saturday morning, during Advent – just be love.  I was moved to tears by Father Pat Martin’s homily.  I didn’t care if anyone saw me crying in the choir bleachers.

            Father Pat talked about God’s goodness, love, and mercy upon us, even when we don’t deserve it.  This truth hit a chord deep inside me.  Twice now, in the past week, in prayer, Jesus and Mary blessed me with all the gifts and all the fruits of the Holy Spirit, even though I am so far removed from deserving them.  It is only out of God’s great goodness, mercy, and love that He blesses me.  The reason that God blesses me, as Father Pat said, is because God loves me!

This truth soaked into my heart and soul.  God loves me!

            Lately I have been most happy when I am emptied of myself, and allow Jesus and Mary to act through me.  I see myself, in prayer, like a little girl sitting on Mary’s lap, while Jesus speaks and acts through me.  Jesus told His Heavenly Father, in His agony in the garden, “not as I will, but as you will.” (Matthew 26:39)  Jesus emptied Himself to do the will of His Father.

            To prepare my heart this Advent for the coming of Jesus on Christmas Day, I was called by the Lord to empty myself, to surrender my will, so I could do God’s will.  I heard on Catholic radio that the main reason we go to Mass is because we offer ourselves as a sacrifice along with Jesus’ sacrifice on the Cross.  That made a lot of sense to me.  So, the next time I went to daily Mass, I surrendered my will to God as my sacrifice.  To confirm my surrendering, I saw with the eyes of my heart, Jesus, standing next to the alter with His feet in water.  He was holding a white Resurrection cloth, ready to baptize me in the water, in the Holy Spirit!  Later, during the Glorious mysteries of the rosary, Mary promised me that she would lead and guide me.  I prayed that I would only do God’s will in my life, every moment!                                      

            I’ve been understanding lately that God is already dwelling inside those who are cooperating with His Holy Spirit of love.  I don’t have to wait until I’m in heaven to be in union with God’s love!  God’s kingdom is already unfolding on earth every time someone recognizes God’s goodness, love, and mercy.

            I am like a house that God dwells in.  “Lord, I am not worthy that You should enter under my roof, but only say the Word, and my soul shall be healed.”  The kingdom of God is made of many houses, many souls, where God dwells in His love.

            I’ve been thinking about living life in the present, moment by moment, now that my fourth child is in college, and only my youngest child is living at home with my husband and I.  I’ve been thinking about living life slowly, mindfully – being aware of God’s holy presence, of God’s love for me every second of my life – allowing God’s goodness to dawn upon me – letting go of my miseries in God’s ocean of mercy – breathing in God’s new life in my heart and soul – just being still in the knowledge of God’s love for me – just being loved by God, just having my being in God’s love, just living in God’s love, just being love – just be love!

            If I could just be love, then all my thoughts and actions would be rooted in love.  “…that he may grant you in accord with the riches of his glory to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in the inner self, and that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the holy ones what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, so that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.”   (Ephesians 3:16-19)

            Just be love.  I don’t have to be anything else, but love.  I believe God wants to flood the world with His love.  God wants each and every precious soul that He created to know His love for them.  God wants us to be His love for each other.  God calls us just to be love!

            Frustrated after a couple of days of failing to be love, I got up in the middle of the night to pray.  Jesus invited me to enter into His Sacred Heart.  I asked Mary to intercede for me for the grace to do this, since I am so unworthy.  Jesus brought me to God Our Father.  I saw with the eyes of my heart a humongous Heart in the air, a mile wide, and a mile high, and as thick as the length of a football field!  It was God Our Father’s Heart, so enormous!  Wow!  When I crawled back into bed, I heard these words in my heart, “I want our hearts to beat as one!”  I understood that God wants everyone’s hearts in the whole world to beat as One!

            Two nights later, in prayer, I could see with the eyes of my heart that Jesus brought me the sun, and put it in my heart!  Then Jesus spoke to my heart, saying, “My Light in you is brighter than the sun!”  Praise God!

            At Christmas Eve Mass, as I was standing in line to receive Holy Communion, a little boy broke loose from his mother and scampered in front of me.  The man standing in line to my right, scooped him up in his grand-fatherly arms and held him for awhile before telling him to go back to his mother.  When I received Jesus in the host I saw with the eyes of my heart that Jesus was a little boy, just like the boy who ran in front of me!  In my mind, I held little Jesus in my arms, and embraced Him, and loved Him!  No wonder my heart needed to be softened with God’s goodness, love, and mercy during Advent – little Jesus was coming to BE with me!

            Jesus is pure love!  In order for me to be love, I need Jesus to be love inside me.  I need Jesus to be Himself inside me.  Praise God that we can receive Jesus in the Holy Eucharist!

Jesus spoke the following words to Saint Faustina’s heart, “I expect from you, My child, a great number of souls who will glorify My mercy for all eternity.  My child, that you may answer My call worthily, receive Me daily in Holy Communion.  It will give you strength…” (Diary, 1489)  I can’t help thinking that my call, our call, is to be love for one another, and the most effective way to do this is to allow our hearts to be softened, so that we can worthily receive little Jesus Himself, the source of all goodness, mercy, and love, into our hearts!  Jesus, please be love in our hearts!  Jesus, please be YOU in our hearts!  Thank You, Jesus, for coming to us as a little boy to be with us on Christmas Day, and every day!  Praise God!

Purple Roses

                

                Mary, my holy Mother of God, has been waking me up in the middle of the night to pray for the forty young women of grace in our parish.  One night, her sweet presence was very strong.  She invited me to enter inside her Immaculate Heart.  I asked her for the grace to do this, since I am so unworthy.

                Mary spoke to my heart.  She said, “I clothe you in my Spouse, the Holy Spirit.”  I saw, in prayer, with the eyes of my heart, how she placed a light blue, transparent mantle, or robe, over me.  There were beautiful roses of grace on the bottom edge of the robe.

                Then Mary brought to me her Son in the form of a Holy Eucharist Host.  She gave me a spiritual communion!  In prayer, in my mind, I ate the Body of Christ, the Body of my Lord Jesus!  Praise God!

                Then I saw, with the eyes of my heart, forty Holy Eucharist Hosts imbedded into my robe.  Mary asked me to pray forty Hail Mary’s, which I did.  For each Hail Mary prayer that I prayed, Mary gave one of the Hosts, a spiritual communion, to one of the forty young women of grace!

                I noticed that there were forty gorgeous pink roses on the bottom edge of my robe.  Mary asked me to pray forty more Hail Mary’s so that she could give a rose of grace to each of the forty young women of grace.  I did!  I love being obedient to Jesus through Mary!

                Then Mary put forty small white daisies into my robe and asked me to pray forty more Hail Mary’s for each of the forty young women of grace.  With each daisy, Mary gave purity, humility, docility to the Holy Spirit, and holiness, to each of these precious daughters of God!  Praise God!

                I could see, with the eyes of my heart, that Mary’s mantle was covering all forty daughters of God.  I saw all the forty Hosts, forty pink roses, and forty white daisies in the bottom edge of her mantle, praise God!

                Then Mary presented me to her Son, Jesus, and He placed a blue-gray nun’s habit over the robe of the Holy Spirit I was wearing.  I could see, with the eyes of my heart, that the robe of the Holy Spirit was like an inner liner for the nun’s habit.  I could see the edges of the Holy Spirit robe under the nun’s habit, and the edges had roses of grace on them.  How beautiful!  Thank You, Jesus!  Thank you, Mary!  I love You, Jesus!  I love you, Mary!  Praise God!!

                In the middle of the next night, Mary called me to pray again.  This time, in prayer, Jesus held me in His arms like a little girl.  He invited me to enter inside His Sacred Heart.  I asked Mary to intercede for me for the grace to do this, since I am so unworthy!

                Jesus brought me to God, my Heavenly Father.  I felt very humble and small, and emptied of myself, and filled with Mary’s Immaculate Heart, and Jesus’ Sacred Heart.  My greatest desire was to do God’s Holy Will every moment of my life.

                God, my Father, blessed me with a halo, like the angels wear!  The halo helps me to know God’s loving Will!  I asked Mary to intercede for me so that I would always know God’s Will, and always be obedient to God’s Will.  Praise God!!!

                This morning, five days later, I prayed the Joyful Mysteries of the holy rosary in front of my “Our Lady of Guadalupe” statue in my bedroom on the tile floor.  Before I began the rosary, in prayer, I repented of my sins at the foot of the Cross.  I saw with the eyes of my heart, Jesus, standing in front of me.  He picked me up like a little girl, and held me to His Chest, and hugged me, and loved me.  I cried.  I was so sorry for my mistakes and my sins.  Jesus just loves me, and forgives me!

                Jesus drew me into His Love and His Peace, into His Sacred Heart.  I asked Mary, my holy Mother of God, to intercede for me for the grace to enter into Jesus’ Sacred Heart, since I am so unworthy.  Jesus walked beside me and held my little hand.  He brought me to see Mary, His Holy Mother.  As we were walking, I noticed the smell of roses.  I looked down, and we were walking on beautiful dark purple roses.  I could only see the heads of the roses since they were packed tight against each other.

                I understood that the deep purple roses were for the forty young women of grace!  The purple color comes from the fusion of the blue grace from Mary’s mantle, that she wears, and the red Precious Blood from Jesus’ Sacred Heart.  The purple roses represent the fusion of the Immaculate Heart of Mary and the Sacred Heart of Jesus.  It is the union of the Love of Jesus and the Love of Mary!

                Mary is blessing each of the forty young women of grace with this beautiful Love of Jesus and Mary!  These forty purple roses also represent these forty daughters of God filled with the love of Jesus and Mary!  Praise God!!!

Purple Baked Goods

                It all started with a group email request from my dear friend for purple baked goods.  She was facilitating a Young Women of Grace retreat Friday and Saturday at our parish, and needed to feed these hungry teen-agers, ages twelve to eighteen.  I had fanciful thoughts of experimenting in my kitchen with red and blue food coloring.  That was my will, but God had other plans for me, and I ultimately swung by the bakery at my local grocery store, instead.  I walked into our main church office on Friday morning to drop off the cookies I bought, and I learned that there were forty of them – forty young women!  Wow!  What a great turn-out!

                Having done my duty, I thought my obligation was finished.  Little did I know, my involvement with these forty young retreatants was so not over!  Later that afternoon I decided to check which time slots were still open for our once-a-month, twenty-four hour Eucharistic Adoration.  I noticed that there was a big opening from 2:00 a.m. – 4:00 a.m. on Saturday morning!  I debated signing up for either one, or two hours, and wondered how I was going to leave my home without disturbing my husband and son.  I have never committed myself for two hours before…I finally decided to take a leap of faith that God would pave the way for me, and keep me awake that second hour!

                Ah!  I love Eucharistic Adoration!  I sat in God’s holy presence, His unconditional love, and ocean of mercy for over an hour, just soaking Him into my heart and soul.  No words.  Just love.

Then a fellow parishioner entered the daily chapel to pray also.  I still had forty-five minutes, so I decided to pray my rosary, the Joyful Mysteries.  I was praying the rosary the way Saint Louis de Montfort prayed it, with the short phrases in the middle of each Hail Mary, to stay attentive.  While I was praying, I was thinking about the forty young women of grace.  When I got to the third mystery, the “Nativity of Our Lord,” Mary, my Holy Mother of God, spoke to my heart.  She wanted me to do something for her.

First, Mary showed me four of the young women, wearing blue-grey nun habits, so holy!  Their backs were turned to me, so I couldn’t see their faces.  Their love for God was like a breath of fresh air!  Then Mary showed me how she was sheltering all forty of the young women with a corner of her Heavenly Mantle, protecting them from all evil and all harm.  Mary spoke to my heart.  She said, “Bring them to me... be a mother to them.”  I realized that Mary spiritually placed them under my charge, to pray for them always!  I was also aware that I needed to humble myself under Mary’s loving guidance, and be completely dependent upon her.  That is the only way for me to know when, and how, to bring these precious daughters of God to Mary, and nurture their faith.

The rest of my rosary prayers became very special.  For the third mystery, the “Nativity,” Saint Louis de Montfort’s phrase after saying, “Jesus,” in each Hail Mary is, “born into poverty.”  I saw how Jesus was being born into their hearts, one heart for each bead on my rosary.  When I got to the tenth bead of the decade, I realized I needed to pray thirty more “Nativity” beads, because there were thirty more daughters of God needing prayers for Jesus to be born into their hearts!  My hands backed up three times over the ten beads to fit in three more decades.

For the fourth mystery, the “Presentation of Jesus in the Temple”, Saint Louis’s phrase for each Hail Mary is “…Jesus, sacrificed.” I prayed forty Hail Mary’s for each of the forty daughters of God, for their sacrifices to the Lord that they will make during their lifetimes.

  For the fifth mystery, the “Finding of Jesus in the Temple,” Saint Louis’s phrase for each Hail Mary is, “…Jesus, Saint among saints.”  I prayed forty Hail Mary’s for Mary to make each daughter of God a saint!

 This is my prayer for each of these very special young women of grace:

Mary, Sweet Mary, my Holy Mother of God, I humbly and lovingly place these young women inside your Immaculate Heart.  Mary, Holy Virgin, please bathe them in the Wound in your Son’s Sacred Heart, in His ocean of divine mercy and love!  Mary, Queen of Angels and Saints, please offer them up to Jesus’ most holy and precious Blood.

Jesus, my beloved and merciful Savior, I humbly and lovingly ask that You please allow Your most holy and precious Blood to fall upon the hearts, minds, and souls of these chosen daughters of Yours.  Jesus, meek and humble of heart, please consume them in the fire of Your love; baptize them in Your Holy Spirit of Love; be born into their hearts and souls, that they may be born into Your love; and dwell in them, that they may dwell in Your love.

Mary, our Blessed Mother, please help these blessed daughters of God to see God’s love for them today, and every day!  Amen!

Lectio Divina Reflection for Luke 6:43-49

"A Tree Known by its Fruit" and "The Two Foundations"

 1. A word or phrase that attracts me: "A good person out of the store of goodness in his heart produces good" (vs. 45a); "who dug deeply" (vs. 48); and, "does not act" (vs. 49).

 2. What I see or hear the Lord is showing or telling me: Come to Me, listen to My Words, and act on them.

          "A good person out of the store of goodness in his heart produces good." The only way I can truly be a good person is to come to Jesus, listen to His Words, and act on them. The Lord is showing me how very important it is for me to spend time with Him in prayer and reading His Holy Word every day. I need to nurture my relationship with Jesus and Mary. I need to abide in God's Word. "Let the Word of Christ dwell in you richly, as in all wisdom you teach and admonish one another, singing psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God." Colossians 3:16

          "...who dug deeply." These words jumped out at me. All I can see, with the eyes of my heart, is Jesus standing at the very bottom of my soul, digging, tilling the soil, breaking up the hardness in my heart, reaching down into my memories, into my wounds, and filling in my brokenness with the love and healing of His Precious Blood, and the cleansing purity of His Holy Spirit, the Water of Life.

          "...does not act." The Lord is telling me to come to Him, listen to His Words, and act on them. This is not easy, the acting part, when I would rather stay hiding in my shell. It's easy to act when I know it's God's will, and I'm filled with His Love, His Joy, and His Strength to do it. It's hard to act when my heart is not in the right place, and I am in need of forgiveness and healing. My actions need to be grounded and rooted in God's love, and in His Holy Word.

          Jesus told Saint Faustina, "Give away everything at the first sign of a demand, even if they were the most necessary things. Do not ask for anything without consulting Me. Allow them to take away even what is due you - respect, your good name - let your spirit rise above all that. And so, set free from everything, rest close to My Heart, not allowing your peace to be disturbed by anything. My pupil, consider the words which I have spoken to you." (Diary, 1685)

          Jesus told Saint Faustina not to ask for anything without consulting Him. I love Saint Faustina's intimate relationship with Jesus! Our Lord was asking her not to act before praying to Him first. The Lord is showing me that I can trust Him to guide me in prayer to know how to act according to His Will, His Word, and His Love!

3. What the Lord is asking me to be or do today, this week, or forever! - "I'm gonna sing when the Spirit says sing!...I'm gonna pray when the Spirit says pray!...I'm gonna love when the Spirit says love!...I'm gonna shout when the Spirit says shout!...and be happy all the day long!"

Luke 6: A Tree Known by Its Fruit.

43 “A good tree does not bear rotten fruit, nor does a rotten tree bear good fruit.

44 For every tree is known by its own fruit. For people do not pick figs from thornbushes, nor do they gather grapes from brambles.

45 A good person out of the store of goodness in his heart produces good, but an evil person out of a store of evil produces evil; for from the fullness of the heart the mouth speaks.

The Two Foundations.

46 “Why do you call me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ but not do what I command?

47 I will show you what someone is like who comes to me, listens to my words, and acts on them.

48 That one is like a person building a house, who dug deeply and laid the foundation on rock; when the flood came, the river burst against that house but could not shake it because it had been well built.

49 But the one who listens and does not act is like a person who built a house on the ground without a foundation. When the river burst against it, it collapsed at once and was completely destroyed.”